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Okay, so.

I’m really blessed to have what I own.

I’m living with people who don’t care about my collection…

But…I was just looking at all my stuff today like “Wow I’m lucky to have all this stuff. I just need to move out, keep it all safe.”

So I was looking at these pieces of loose art and lithographs that I had on my shelf. And then I remembered the lithograph on my old copy of Terminator 2 that I gave to my little brother. I gave a lot of my old DVDs to him years ago, when i got the Blu-Rays. But…he doesn’t watch them. He’s not gonna take them with him when he goes to college. Et cetera, blah blah blah.

So…I wanted to get the lithograph off of the Terminator DVD. I thought “It’s just that loose glue, and underneath is artwork. Nope. The lithograph was a part of the slipcover. So I start ripping it off and I felt so bad. Like "Am I really gonna ruin this?”

So I did an experiment. I was like “Just do it and see how you feel”.“ So I ripped it off and I felt terrible! Heh heh heh heh heh! I RUINED A SLIPCOVER! Hah hah hah hah hah!

But…I was honest. I thought I was gonna move out years ago. I would have just left this behind. It would’ve probably gone in the garbage anyway. So…I saved a piece of it.

But it scares me because…if I can ruin this slipcover, my 3D copy of The Amazing Spider-Man can be ruined too…you know? Oh my gosh that scares me.

Like…everything I own is destroyable if I can destroy this slipcover.

What-Oh my gosh why did I do this? But I wasn’t planning on taking with me anyway…

Oh my gosh…
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Took two years. (I finished it).
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Okay, I’m not done crying. But that’s okay. It’s okay to cry.
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I’m not gonna cry anymore…

Excelsior…

Excelsior…

Excelsior…

Excelsior…

“Excelsior”…

…Exactly…I’m gonna give that one more shot…

God be with me; guide me, heal me. Protect what I’ve built, restore what I’ve lost. Give my doubts a chance. Let’s split up this burden in heaven and on Earth. Let’s make this life substance and not something that weighs me down. But also…give me anchors to keep me in the “now”. In Jesus’ name.

And thank you for Stan. He’s one of the reasons I’m doing what I’m doing. He’s probably the first creator I knew about other than you. Lift this apathy, this numbness. Let me tell these stories, create, build, make, do, live, be…and enjoy it. Let me build my own canon and add to others’. Give me a base to build my days on. Screw my own dark thoughts and situations. If there’s life beyond this, show me. Let me expand the world for others, and expand the world for me. In Jesus’ name.

Excelsior…exactly what that word means. And Amen.
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I was just watching you…
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Stanley Lieber…

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I should probably find somewhere to cry…for real cry…not this that I’m doing. I shouldn’t hold this in.

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My biological grandmother is threatening to kick me out next week. That’s scary. But I let this kid play with my Voltron. He’s five. His name is Jaden. I also let him take my copy of Big Hero 6 out of my PS3……….he dropped the disc on the floor….

DON’T EVER CALL ME MEAN…or say I’m not brave. Heh heh heh heh!

(Kids love my stuff. It’s amazing. I love it too. Heh heh heh heh heh heh heh!)
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